2nd Shots

So hard to see two big syringes and an innocent baby lying on the counter of the doctor's office. Dr Simons is talking to me as we waves around the syringe and my anxiety level is increasing by the minute. Afterwards Dr Simons observes that Oskar's cry is not one of the usual whimpering pain of an infant....but of anger. He is "pissed-off". Wouldn't you be? A helpless 3 month old? He settles fairly quickly in my arms and we hastily depart his office.

Later at home, Oskar is feverish and upset. He clings to me, needing comfort like never before. It is an amazing thing to be needed by one so helpless and upset. Little arms grasp my neck and he burrows his face as far as it can go into my shoulder. I melt. I would never want him to be in this state again but I know it will happen for various reasons throughout his life and I love the feeling of being needed..of being able to comfort this little being. A new experience of motherhood.